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October 10th, 2006
08:39 pm
Young Machetes.
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October 5th, 2006
12:06 am
I don't even know anymore. I look at life right now at this moment and everything seems fine. I guess there was really only two things that I wanted to mention.
a) the "excitement" of college has obviously been lost. i remember last year being so excited about all of this shit and after a year and continuing on now, i don't even know what the hell i'm doing in school. its become just a part of my day, a chore, a routine. not that high school or last year was any different, this time around i just don't have the motivation or any real agreeable reason to try. i surprised myself considering dropping out or take a break but knowing myself i most likely wouldn't go back to school. thing is, i can't help but just think of how fast i can get this done with. if all this is for is a piece of paper saying that i went through 4 years of higher education, where is the substance? where are the dreams that motivate me? the things i really want to do have nothing to do with such things. i have no desire for wealth and absolutely no desire to waste time just to be "well off". well-off is a bullshit term anyways. i don't want to work daily in the same "office" or "cubicle". fuck that, i don't even know what i want to do with this. none of this doesn't make any sense and i'm just tired, but its hard to dedicate myself to something i just don't see any real growth from. all i can think about when it comes to school is how fast i can get my required credits done and how fast i can resort to electives just so i can get away from a single-track education.
b) there a few people i'd like to sit down and just catch up with. think i've just been too attached to the daily routines of life that i've lost a few connections here and there. for example, on my way home tonight, i get a phone call from an unknown number. out of nowhere i hear a familiar voice go, "hey james what's going on tonight?" and i was surprised cause i hadn't heard this voice for a LONG time and they asked such a simple question as if i see them often. then it hits me that its jon bush. apparently he's back in town, not sure for how long but he's one of such people i'd like to just hang out with and discuss whatever. i need to get out of my own life. someone remind me they exist and we'll discuss what's happened in the past month(s) or year(s). oh and by exist doesn't mean i forgot. i mean i suck and my life has consumed and taken control of me temporarily and i am apologizing.
i have no idea why i randomly decided to update and actually write something. so far for the past two weeks straight its been: school, work, band, alyssa, friends, cigarettes, beer, recording, drumstuff, more recording, more work, more alyssa, more cigarettes, school again. then repeat. not complaining at all though like i said everything is fine. but its at a cruising level. and i'm constantly busy.
oh and buy our EP/demo/"whatever we're releasing because bennet can't make up his mind and i don't give a shit" when it comes out. because this band actually has substance and structure. i apologize for the atrocity two years ago.
every time i write in this thing i feel dead and monotone. i can re-read what i wrote and imagine as if i was dane saying it outloud. sorry dane. you're not dead but slightly monotone and you know it so i'm really not that sorry. as if dane or anyone for that matter reads this.
Current Location: house.
Current Music: mwy- in a sweater poorly knit
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September 28th, 2006
03:11 pm
Brother, Sister.
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July 1st, 2006
01:46 am
So I am a total fuckin idiot and I fell asleep next to my laptop. Yes the computer and myself were both on the bed. Yes the computer was opened, powered on, and it was on the corner of my bed.
I wake up at 3 AM pouring sweat in a feverish like manner and it was unexpected that I'd feel like crap since I've felt like a god recently. So I thought to myself, "goddamn it i can't get sick now, i work fuckin 7 days a week". and at the same time kinda woke myself up completely and swung my foot.
Next thing i know, I heard a thud and I notice that the lights in my room are still on and I probably fell asleep. I look over and I see my laptop (still open and on) on the ground sitting next to my fan and the display is all cracked and broken. At this time of the night I had no intention of using my energy to curse up a storm and freak out so I literally just went back to sleep to try to feel better.
One day later....I find out that I can either spend somewhere around $550 to fix my screen or I can just go ahead and buy a new computer. But get this, I, like many people my age, DON'T HAVE THE MONEY TO GO BUYING RANDOM LAPTOPS. Either way I'm out a chunk of cash, but goddamn it this fucking blows because I love that computer to death. When I bought it, it was the odd one out. The only one with a Radeon graphics card. The only one with 60 gigs AND 512 RAM. The only one capable of handling the things I do on a computer without being uber expensive or over-geared. It was just fuckin right. and somewhere along the lines karma decided to fuck me and let me break one of the few things I get joy from. GOD FUCKIN' DAMMIT.
Seriously this sucks and I don't care about how "its just a computer". EVERY OTHER COMPUTER IN MY LIFE THAT I'VE USED OR WORKED ON OR BUILT HAVE LEFT ME DISAPPOINTED FOR A CERTAIN PERIOD BEFORE IT GOT BETTER. THIS TOSHIBA WAS LOVELY FROM THE START UNTIL THE DAY ITS FACE BROKEN IN. Fuck.
So I am pretty sure I'm just gonna get the screen fixed as opposed to getting a brand new computer because its pretty rare for me to find another "odd one out". All the good ones are TOO good and TOO expensive. and all the shitty ones are TOO shitty to even spend the cheap money on. If i can find another one thats "just right", then that means karma forgives. Until then I will do good deeds and give the fuckin creepy lady her Fajita Fiesta Pollo Salad the way she wants it.
I mean, for fuck's sakes, its not that fuckin hard to remember and yet everytime she comes in she makes it sound like its the hardest fuckin thing to do. LADY - ITS JUST A PAIN IN THE ASS TO DO AND YOU DON'T TIP ENOUGH TO GIVE ANYONE THE INCENTIVE. WE DON'T WANT YOUR $0.87 TIP.
This entry totally doesn't deliver. I just wished I wasn't so stupid and broke my computer the way I did. I remember not buying the extended warranty because I told myself "only idiots break their computer physically or unintentionally." or something like that.
Yeah, this entry still doesn't deliver.
Current Location: DESKTOP SHIT COMPUTER I HATE
Current Music: RR Soundtrack in my head.
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June 18th, 2006
12:32 am
dude it was so intense today at work i was half watching the ITA vs. USA game while half serving tables. ITA scored in the first 25 minutes but USA tied up the game 1-1 ten minutes later. The game ended 1-1 draw between USA and ITA. This was a huge game for the USA and they pretty much had to win it in order to stay strong in the first half of the tournament. but they tied. for some reason i start thinking that the game is rigged. The only way the USA finds its way to elimination is if Czech definitely loses their next game (which they won't) and if USA definitely wins their next game (which they will). and no one will know what happens and thats how FIFA makes the world keep watching. and fuck people who come in and say "turn off this crap, put on baseball". Football is the real sport, you isolationist american pieces of shit.
JK
but only JK on that last part.
but seriously. I am tired from working a double and all I want to do now is have a nice cold drink and watch world cup games but they are only on in the mornings.
oh and my own prediction says that England, Germany, Italy, and Argentina will find their way to the finals. Korea and Australia will definitely get into elimination but i don't know if they'll get far. Australia and Korea are gonna be good games this year. Brazil vs. Australia and France vs. Korea are gonna be good games. I'm gonna stop talking about football now and end this stupid entry.
btw, Carly needs to stop triple seating people and sucking hardcore. she's only gonna be working here for like another 2-3 months anyways go away carly.
Edit: I just found out that Czech is playing Italy next so yes they will lose their next game but it should be good. maybe USA does have a chance but they will blow Germany and England hardcore if they ever play in elimination. MUAHAHHA die USA you lost to Germany 4 years ago anyways fuck that. oh well. I like Germans. They are hot. says Carlos.
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June 11th, 2006
01:56 am
FUCK. GET IT AWAY. IT SHOULD BE GONE WITH THIS POST! IF ITS NOT FUCK LJ.
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01:50 am
oh yeah i forgot
Oh yeah. and its football not soccer. and you all should watch it cause its more liberating and entertaining than the other shitty american sports that everyone else loves that don't matter.
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01:22 am
So lately I've been doing nothing but work and seeing Lindsay for a short span of time then I cut myself then I go back to work then I go home and cut myself and then I sleep. Repeat that couple times and then every other time add in "I hang out w/ friends" somewhere near the end. Not trying to say that life is a boring cycle right now. It isn't, its just basically what I've been doing. and I realized I don't get a Smiling Burger certified pin unless I actually go back to the kitchen and make a burger myself. Which is something I won't do cause in that time I can wait on 3 tables and get mucho cash. not even 3, probably like 5 or 6 at a time cause I rock at my job somehow although i never thought i could be a server. Going home with nearly a hundred bucks a night seems to sound a lot better than "i've made 1200 dollars in 3 weeks" because it doesn't sound like it adds up. i don't know, i don't care, i've made back nearly all the money I wasted throughout freshman year - in a mere 3 weeks. not even a month! plus i've spent some! so its gotta be like 1400 or 1500 depending!
wait that was wrong because the majority of the money i spent freshman year came from the government. therefore i still have about 2,000 dollars to make. but thats not the point. the point is that i love my job and everyone should come in for freckled lemonades and onion rings and dear lord do not make me make you dessert because it takes like 10 fuckin minutes to make it and this old couple comes in once a week and orders to sundaes and its like dude just go to frys across the street and buy a bucket of ice cream you dumbfuck. but its cool though cause they tip me lots now cause somehow they keep getting seated in my section and love me or something. oh and FUCK BRAZILIANS and their non-tipping habits. I GAVE YOU A MENU TOUR CAUSE YOU DIDN'T KNOW WHAT ONION IN ENGLISH MEANT. then theres adrian this new dude who i suspect of stealing my silverware. cause he's a bad.
in all seriousness. - I MISS YOU LINDENTREE. AND I LOVE YOU LINDENTREE. AND MOST IMPORTANTLY OUR SCHEDULES NEED TO BE SOMEWHAT UNIFORMED CAUSE HAVING OPPOSITE SHIFTS BLOW AND I WANNA GO BOWLING WITH YOUR MOTHER AND BILL, LINDENTREE.
oh and just to spread it out even more although this will have no effect: Jordan Brasch at Red Robin asked a customer "how did you want your salad cooked?". So far a few that I've told that's come in has either mentioned it or downright made fun of her (Lindsay 1, Jordan 0 ; Underwood 234298234, Jordan 0).
if you are foreign and you know it, clap your hands!
Current Location: this entry blew and made no sense and was pointless
Current Mood: i am great.
Current Music: its okay though cause i am insane and i love my job
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May 20th, 2006
09:19 am
That is all. Have a nice day.
Current Music: 10,000 days
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May 16th, 2006
03:44 pm - Beware of TAXES and loud noises.
Soooo. Liffeeeee issss grrraannnddd. There are lots of people who are like 'SOOO LIFEE ISN'T SOOO GRANNDD OKAY?' and that sucks for them. Because life is grand.
I got a job at Red Robinzzzz and it's pretty much pointless, as are all jobs in the resturaunt business, except for managing. Let me tell you about a great manager. His name is Abe. He is great. We think he's Egyptian, but we're not sure. He's in love with my girlfriend and makes us free hashbrowns, and there are lots of people who wouldn't make us free hashbrowns, but Abe makes us free hashbrowns. And Lindsay's manager gives us free pie. Sometimes. Not all the time. Pie thief.
PIIIEEE THIIIIEEEFF.
I'm feeling sort of crazy and bizarre but that's probably because I'm so content with life and life is good. Summer school starts sort of soon, but that's alright because I'll be living in my own house and having gay relationships with the rest of the boys in there. It's like a, uhm. Reality show. Whatever.
My money has been drained from my pockets and bank accout so I have been living off of the money Lindsay gives me and the change I find in my dads office. That's like stealing. Well it is stealing. But Lindsay's so great she buys everything for me. AWWWW. Sugar-mammamamamam.....a. Give me yo' money, give me yo' monnnn'ayyyy.
UPDATE ON CATS:
My two cats are the greatest ever. Except Wyatt is constantly hiding from everyone ever born. Lindsay and I are the cat-saver-super-heros. Imagine a Chipolte burrito. Okay, are you imagining a Chipotle burrito? Okay. Good. Now imagine a Chipolte burrito with fur and a cats head and tail and legs and whatever the hell grows off of cats that isn't fur or heads or tails or legs. We saved two cats that looked like that. I don't imagine they'd taste as good as a Chipotle burrito though. Hardly anything does.
I just saw a rabbit jump about 5 feet in the air in my backyard. IT'S MATING SEASON ALL! ARE YOU MATING?!?!?!?!??!?!
Snood is the best computer game ever invented and FUCK YOU WORLD OF WAR-CRACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! See what I did there? Instead of saying WORLD OF WARCRAFT I said WORLD OF WAR-CRACK, because that's how much I hateeeee that game. And if you say it's awesome, I will stab you in the knee cap with a pen. I've never been stabbed in the knee cap with a pen, but I'd imagine it would hurttt. DAY-UM.
So it's like 110 degrees out and that's so fucking insane because it's not even June. I attempted carrying around a bucket of ice so I could stick my head in it whenever I felt hot, but my mistake, I put it in a metal pail and all the ice melted and then started to boil. Not so refreshing. Okay, that really didn't happen. But that's something that could have happened very easily in this stove that we call Arizona. But then again, the desert is amazing. It defies all laws of nature. Anorexic pillars form upside-down from masses of purple rock like 100-ton lolly pops and you can be in 110 degrees, drive two hours, and be in nice 70 degree weather.
Regardless. Fuck you Arizona.
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Current Location: On my living room coucchhhh.
Current Mood:  staring at a box?
Current Music: Cats, meowing?!??!??
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